Letting Go

I hear the rain pounding the earth outside my window, mimicking the noise in my head.
My heart is flanked, sinking in this black hole of dread.
I've filled my life and lungs with regrets -
tormenting myself over and over, never to forget.
Slowly drowning, weighed down by the anchors of guilt and shame.
I only have myself to blame.
Then, I think of the unbearable pain you went through -
Of how you love me unconditionally.
You knew the patchwork of my days... and formed me anyway.
I remember your promises and your tenderness.
You are my hope and healing, like a lighthouse lantern beckoning me back to shore.
You are here with me even now -
cheering me on, giving me the courage to try once more.
I breath deep, as if it is my first emerging breath and I let it all go -
Cascading from my soul like a raging waterfall into your gentle loving hands.
Peace flows through me as a tranquil spring river, knowing you are beside me forever.
You are my God, my Rock, my Redeemer.
You are my friend.